happy 18th birthday to meeee =)

and happy three months baby...

 i dont think you realize what you do to me.. and maybe i dont say it enough or show it the way i should... but iloveyou. you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.. there are NO doubts in my mind about us..   thank you<3

soo. i don't know why but i'm feeling the need for a xanga entry.

maybe its cuz im one of the few who don't have facebook yet.. ha i know.. but I AM NOT INTO COLLEGE YET. okay.. well i'm into OU and BG.. but until i hear from THE ohio state university.. nothing else matters.

its crazy waiting for these damn letters. craazzzyyy. 

six months and five days til graduation.

a little more than five months til our last day of high school... ever.

a few more days and four months til CANCUN. wowwww that is sooo soooon.

one day less than one month til the best holiday ever... christmas.

and uhh... three days until i'm eighteen. =)

hell yesss.

what a year.

yeah i know.. no one reads xanga anymore right? well fuck that. i need to vent.

its SENIOR YEAR. we're fucking applying to COLLEGE. how scary is that? 12 years... done. holy shit. not gonna lie.. stress level is at its maximum and i feel like im hiding, avoiding, and procrastinating to the height of my abilities. so many questions. what if my essays suck. what if i dont get in to the places i want to go. what the hell will i do??

i feel like im being hit with everything at once. including a bus.

and you... im at a loss for words. no, okay im not speechless. but am i ever? i miss you. and im heartbroken but i cant admit it cuz then IM the one who looks stupid, right? wrong. i miss you. there i said it.

sucks dont it?

do you ever feel like your about to lose the only things that matter to you but theres nothing you can do about it? or maybe you've already lost it.

i never thought id say it, but im not nearly ready to grow up. not even close.

"He's not perfect. you aren't either. the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once.. hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not going to be thinking about you at every moment, but he will give you a part of him he knows you can break. So don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give you. Don't analyze- smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's NOT there."

yeah.... deffinnittelllyyy feeling that quote today...

head over heels...<3 <3

soo... seniors??

whhoaaaa.

bring it on.

i love you class of 07 =)